Q and A with a psychopath
03-25-2016, 05:48 PM
Way back in the day I posted a series of videos on the topic; you can still find them if you search my youtube channel, but they're amateurish compared to the sort of content I put out now, so I've been planning to redo them in a more professional manner. Over the years I've received a lot of appreciative emails from people who experienced one of these monsters: the narcissist, the borderline, the psychopath, and the histrionic.
I've also had a few Psychology PhDs nod approvingly of the video (despite my rude statements about the industry) so I do believe I'm on to something.
My theory (that is, my explanation of the observable facts) is based upon the work of Freud, as well as the medieval humours. Essentially you can break people down into four basic categories, with two axis of relative behaviour: the extrovert/introvert axis (N/S), and the people-focussed/process-focussed axis (W/E) resulting in:
Sanguine------Choleric
Melancholic----Phlegmatic
Or, to put it into terms that most people will understand:
Raphael---------Leonardo
Michelangelo----Donatello
The Type II/Cluster B personality disorders are, essentially, brains without "Super Egos"; Either the Id or the Ego is in complete control, slaving the other and causing it to manifest false impressions of reality.
Raphael is an extrovert/people-focussed person. He gets bored easily, and seeks out new experiences. The Narcissist is a degenerate Raph; his Id has slaved the Ego to its will, so he lies constantly. The Id only understands emotion/narcissistic supply, so it will manufacture Egoist/Logical "truths" to support this form of attention.
Leonardo is extrovert/process-focussed. Raph comes up with an idea, Leo's the guy that's paranoid enough to make sure everything's organized. He's a natural manipulator; his Ego is dominant. The psychopath is the degenerate form of Leo (already covered this above).
Donatello is Intro/Process; he likes working with machines and systems, trusts somebody else to take care of the interpersonal dynamics. His degenerate form is the Histrionic; the eye of the storm, the only sane person in the room, who indirectly gossips to make everybody in their environment fight with one another, so that they look like the martyr - "I'm the glue that holds this crazy family together."
Mike is an introvert/people focussed (this is why he jokes all the time - he's HIDING behind the jokes because he's shy); his degenerate form is the introverted narcissist, the Borderline/BPD. He craves affect (primarily Id driven), but rather than demanding attention like the Narcissistic extrovert, he seeks out abuse - he demands it! He abuses sexuality, either being slutty if it's a woman, or being sexually gratuitous but chaste if he's a man (arousing women then denying them, discussing pornography in public, et cetera). The BPD seeks out indirect attention; they try and provoke attacks.
Goals come from the Super Ego - that thing that regulates the emotional with the analytic. In the case of the Cluster B Personality disorders there is no Super Ego, just two halves of a person without any soul attatched to it (at least, no soul that can be detected). The closest you'll ever get to seeing the soul of one of these people is a brief moment of limitless shame and rage - before a new, fake personality snaps into place, possibly a complete inversion of what the previous personality was...
Note; this is why BPD got the title. With the Narcissist, his new persona will be obvious bullshit: he'll go from being the "Best used car salesman in town!" to a "Motivational speaker who understands the plight of women!" or whatever. With the BPD - given that they're a 'victim' personality disorder - they will manifest an entirely new range of emotional responses and preferences, leading early researchers to suspect that it was a form of schizophrenia - it isn't.
A couple final notes:
Psychopathy is *not* anti-social personality disorder - aka gang bangers, rapists, and murderers, the people you'll typically hear referred to as psychos. ASPD is nothing but high-time preference, high testosterone, low empathy, and low intelligence: pick three out of four. Personally I wouldn't even call it a personality disorder, but just a natural part of human behaviour. The solution is simple: hit them with a stick.
Schizophrenia: with this I have more suspicions than evidence (one day maybe I can change that), but what it *usually* boils down to is suppressed/compartmentalized childhood abuse. The tragic thing about schizos is that they're actually incredibly moral people. Instead of revisiting their terrible childhoods onto their own children, they refuse - and the trauma finds a 'voice' inside of them, which yells threats and swear words.
You know that voice and/or memory you get every so often? You're walking down the street having a slap-dandy day, and suddenly - for no reason - you remember that time you farted in the middle of 3rd Grade home room and everyone laughed? "God, what an enormous faggot you are! Who are you thinking that you're Mister Cool? If people knew about what you were really like, they'd hate you."
Imagine that times 100 - 1000. This is the inverse of the Self Talk that Cernovich discusses in Gorilla Mindset.
Hope that was clear. Like I said, I plan to put this together into a thorough explanation in the near future. Understanding the mechanism is crucial.
And OP, if you're reading this - we were ALL douchebags when we were your age, take your licks and stick around.