I was besotted with my first 'steady' girlfriend when I was a young lad. Total puppy love bullshit. She was sweet sixteen and beautiful. Big brown eyes, sweet tits, round ass, soft skin, fun to talk to, cute giggle. Man I thought she was something special, like the lovestruck teenager I was. But god dammit if I couldn't get the bang. 4 months and all I got was a blowjob. She always had some excuse to get away, and the one time I did get her naked the atmosphere was awkward as fuck and the only condom at her house broke and she wouldn't fuck without it. Hard luck for me.
I assumed she was a virgin and that was the cause of her nervousness. I didn't push the issue. I wasn't totally clueless with girls and I guess I was good looking enough so I could have got it elsewhere but I was soft and green as fuck and I really liked her. It shames me to admit it now but I was just happy to be able to spend time with her, blue balls or not.
I paid to take her to see her favourite band. I also paid for a hotel room for the night, thinking being away from home would give us the opportunity we needed to get screwing. She was a bitch all day, moaning and sulking and being a genuine cunt. She perked up when we were at the concert, but when we got to the hotel she switched off and practically ignored me. She told me she was on her period so we couldn't do anything, took a shower, then got into bed and didn't say anything else before falling asleep.
When we got back into town she gave me a long kiss and went home. Three days later she broke up with me by text. I cried. Remember, I was a kid.
A week later I went to a party of a mutual friend, knowing she'd be there and pathetically hoping to talk to her. She was there all right, flirting and laughing with a guy I knew. A guy I disliked, who I knew disliked me more. Angry, I went out for a cigarette. Just in time to see her leaving, with the guy. And his cousin. He waved goodbye to me. I stood there, furious and shocked, like an idiot.
I later learned that they got a hotel room of their own. All three of them. They both fucked her. Sometimes at the same time. I know because he sent me three pictures. Her naked ass. Dicks in her pussy and mouth. Cum on her face.
^my IRL reaction^
For the 16 year old me, it was brutal. More brutal than I can really describe. I don't think I've ever felt anything so strongly as the rage, despair and yes, jealousy. She said she didn't know he was gonna send me the photos. She said it was mean but that I had to admit it was 'kind of funny'.
Some nine years later I'm glad it happened. In retrospect, from her perspective it's not like she did that much wrong except break up with a pussy and then slut it up with dudes who hate him. I blame my younger self for letting it happen. Scorpions gonna scorpion indeed.
But it hurt like hell and though it didn't make me resent women, I never again really believed any girl to be 'special' like that. Which is a good thing. It was a learning experience. I'm glad I learned the lesson early. I see guys older than me making the same mistakes I did and I'm sure the consequences could be worse.
Also, I fucked her best friend. And a relative of the guy who sent those photos. Not out of revenge, it was just a coincidence, but it still felt good.
Side Note: Dr Howard is right, I'm sure we've done awful things to women. I know I have. Maybe there should be a separate thread