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OP, I'm going to break down your situation and I want you to read every thread that I link to in this post, and if you still need further consultation, feel free to hit me up privately.
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Think back to that one girl you couldn't get rid of because you felt so attached to her, despite how many times she has wronged you.
You're pussy-whipped. She's wronged you, but you enjoy sex with her, you can't let go of fucking her, so it doesn't matter what she does or what you do, you keep some sort of attachment to her just so you keep getting into her box.
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She's not a oneitits, but you care for her.
You don't really care for her, you care about yourself. At this point in your life, you're a low-quality man. You can't have the type of woman you really want in your life, so you've accepted that this is the type of woman and the type of relationship that you can have. You rather have it than nothing at all.
It's not "oneitis", it's worse.
Oneitis usually comes from inexperience. It's natural for men to become attached to women who they've had their first sexual experiences, intense relationships with, etc. When a man keeps going back to the same chick, despite the fact that he can get other chicks, he has deeper problems. He neither has the confidence, nor the ability, to go out into the world and find better. If he could find better, she would cease to exist. Women do it all the time. They might be hung up on you after a break-up, but you become non-existent as soon as they find themselves in a new relationship. If that relationship succeeds, you'll never hear from them again, you only hear from them when it fails, and if you touched them deep enough that made them feel like you were one who they could go back to.
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I cut her off for 2 months before but eventually I went back to her because she was constantly on my mind during that period
You might have "cut her off", but you didn't cut yourself off. You didn't delete her number or any other way that you could get in contact with her.
She's your lifeboat, since you don't have any confidence, as soon as you remember that you can't swim, you reach back for your lifeboat.
People get comfortable, they get complacent. You are comfortable with her, because she's the devil you know, and she's the "best" devil you know. Again, you might be pulling other chicks, but you're not pulling chicks who are any better than she is, so the cycle continues, leave her, fuck with something else shitty, go back, leave her, fuck with something else shitty, go back.
You have work to do on yourself, until then, accept that you have no game and you're not a player, don't feel yourself because you can make at-best lateral moves.
You're trapped in a shitty, toxic relationship with an arsenic cupcake. Whatever sweetness you've found, it keeps you coming back, but with every bite you don't taste the poison. That poison is killing you on a subconscious level, because again, you don't have the confidence nor the ability to do any better, because if you did, you would.
If she was that special and you cared so much, she wouldn't have hurt you to begin with, and you wouldn't be in this on-off, in-out tailspin.
Is she it for you?
Are you done with the game, done trying to meet other women?
If you are, then be with her and forget about here.
But you're here, which means you're not, so don't lie to yourself that you care about her so much and put extras on feelings that don't really exist, because it's just rationalizing and lying to yourself to make you feel better about your reality as it pertains to her, as it pertains to women period.
She is making you worse, when you really tap into yourself, who you are, the life you're leading, you'll realize that, you'll realize that women only push you in two directions in life, forwards or backwards, you're going nothing but backwards, accept that she is an opponent, not a teammate, and opponents only work against you so that you lose.
Don't take any of that personally, it may sound harsh, but it's the truth, and right now you need the truth.
Here are the threads that I encourage you to read:
She's Not Good Enough
It's Over Before It's Over & What To Do When You Know It
The One Thing To Remember When You Leave Her
Who's In The Game: Players, Spectators, Opponents, and Teammates
Fake Dimes, Loser Females, & DOA Relationships
Players Vs. Gamblers
The Only Rule For Ex's
The Confidence Killers
On Your Self-Confidence and Confidence Killers (Part 2)
See The Truth
You'll find bits of pieces of her, yourself, and that ass relationship you have with her in them.
She doesn't "have a hold on you", you can move on, if you really want to show and prove to yourself that you can be better, that you can have better.
Until then.