I'm going to try and illustrate this as best as I possibly can. I have no where else to turn to. I'm losing my mind every day.
A little over a year ago, my mother passed away due to cancer, so I was already battling demons, so to speak. Around a little time after all this, I met this girl. At first, she was stunning. Absolutely nice, sweet, loving, and most importantly, innocent. In every sense of the word. She was 19 at the time, me 20. We met through a mutual friend, and hit it off. I was in love, you could say. She was a Muslim convert, european in origin. She seemed like a real charming, classy lady.
For about a year, the relationship was fine. I was her first (took her virginity) and happiness seemed abound. Problems began to develop. She rarely if ever wanted to sleep with me, citing religion as a reason, and wanting to keep things pure until marriage. I don't know how much I can believe this, though. My head really started to spin when she began telling me that she isn't a "sexual creature" and grimaced at the though of having to sleep with me in the future, wanting only to do it to make children. This innocent, sweet girl developed an attitude unlike any other. She had become extremely grumpy, mean, and bitchy on a daily basis. Little fights would turn into huge arguements, where I was always blamed for everything. The stress and saddness resulted me in skipping work numerous times, losing alot of money and productivity. No matter how much I tried to sit down, think, and reason, I just cannot figure out how I am the cause of every fight/problem. She'll fight nonstop, no matter how much I beg her to just relax and let things go. I'll apologize nonstop, and she will not nudge.
I've deduced that it isn't another man in the picture, but I just cant figure out how this sweet girl turned out to be so evil, rude and bitchy. What sucks more is that I am emotionally trapped to this girl. I really cant take her shit/ stress anymore, but I dont want to lose her....Idk wtf to do guys.
I should've never gotten into a LTR. Never again.
A little over a year ago, my mother passed away due to cancer, so I was already battling demons, so to speak. Around a little time after all this, I met this girl. At first, she was stunning. Absolutely nice, sweet, loving, and most importantly, innocent. In every sense of the word. She was 19 at the time, me 20. We met through a mutual friend, and hit it off. I was in love, you could say. She was a Muslim convert, european in origin. She seemed like a real charming, classy lady.
For about a year, the relationship was fine. I was her first (took her virginity) and happiness seemed abound. Problems began to develop. She rarely if ever wanted to sleep with me, citing religion as a reason, and wanting to keep things pure until marriage. I don't know how much I can believe this, though. My head really started to spin when she began telling me that she isn't a "sexual creature" and grimaced at the though of having to sleep with me in the future, wanting only to do it to make children. This innocent, sweet girl developed an attitude unlike any other. She had become extremely grumpy, mean, and bitchy on a daily basis. Little fights would turn into huge arguements, where I was always blamed for everything. The stress and saddness resulted me in skipping work numerous times, losing alot of money and productivity. No matter how much I tried to sit down, think, and reason, I just cannot figure out how I am the cause of every fight/problem. She'll fight nonstop, no matter how much I beg her to just relax and let things go. I'll apologize nonstop, and she will not nudge.
I've deduced that it isn't another man in the picture, but I just cant figure out how this sweet girl turned out to be so evil, rude and bitchy. What sucks more is that I am emotionally trapped to this girl. I really cant take her shit/ stress anymore, but I dont want to lose her....Idk wtf to do guys.
I should've never gotten into a LTR. Never again.
