[Guriko]

Hey guys, terribly sorry for replying so late.

I'd like to thank everybody for their replies. I've read them many times over again and let them ruminate in my mind so that I'll be able to write most honestly.

I've just finished my rounds at the orthopedics/traumatology department and have come to the firm conclusion that surgery is not something for me.

I've also decided that I will not be a member of a larger clinic. At least not permanently. I just cannot see myself doing the 'office game' my whole life.

My goal is to be the master of my own fate which means I'd like a portable skill set which is sought in many countries which will enable me to bounce around. One day I'd like or let me rephrase that I will open my own clinic that will work under my own rules. I'd like to coach and help other male medical students like this forum has helped me because the state of affairs currently is sad.

I do not see fire in the eyes of the men. I see calculative coldness and fear. I hate that and do not wish to be part of that. I'd like to be free and autonomous. I will also make a ton of money and am prepared to work hard in order to get there.

I view it as a challenge worthy of pursuing effort: freedom, riches and a generous spirit to help others in need. This is my end goal and this is what I will achieve in the coming years. Brash? I believe so. But I have to set high standards or I will let stagnation take over my soul, mind and body.

I'm going to a Radiology Conference this year and it seems like a nice specialty. Can make good money, I like machines and can spare the time to help others. I'm even thinking about picking one specialty like Radiology, Pathology or something similar which will enable me to pursue freedom and money while also working as a general practitioner in order not to lose my touch with common patients.

This is also something I've noticed in bigger clinics what I don't like. People being treated like number or mere ink on paper. I very much value human interaction but I believe on the periphery it is better than the city.

Short summary then - I wish freedom, money and the ability to help people (patients and colleagues alike). I believe some worthy specialties to be Radiology, Pathology, Dermatology or something from Internal Medicine. Besides that I'd also be prepared to work part time as a GP.

South Africa seems very interesting, likewise the Sans Frontiers.

What do you guys think? Doable or should I revise my plans?