Warning: This will be a long post. I never knew I would ever dedicate my time online to write about some girl, but whatever
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Long time lurker here. Have been into gaming women for about 2 years now after swallowing 'the red pill.' I am completely comfortable around women and pull cute girls on a consistent basis. But what's cute for me doesn't have to be cute for another guy since I've been told I have a weird taste...
Anyways, I usually never post on forums but this will be an exception since I'm having some trouble with my unique case.
Rewind 2 weeks ago. I read the 'how to get laid on OKcupid like a boss' thread entirely and decide to make an account there, without my real picture, location and info. Just to experiment basically. I set my city to to Miami and saw some cute girls on there. I decided to send a message to a couple and some replied.
Next thing I know I am exchanging messages with a cute 20 year old college student from a suburb in Miami. I completely let my guard down since I just created the account to experiment. We message each other for like 5 days straight until she asked if I use Skype.
This is where it all went wrong. I never should have done this. What happened next was I created a Skype account (fake one obviously) and added her on that. After chatting for some time she asked if I had a webcam. I denied it and told her I am at work and they don't have web cams, but that I do have a microphone. I talked to her and she seemed real sweet compared to the other girls I have met.
We really talked about everything you can imagine. After a while she asked if I wanted to see her via webcam. I said sure. She turned her cam on for me and we talked some more. Now I could see her reaction to everything I said to her. She laughed at smiled a lot of the time I said something, which really made me like her..
This went on for a couple of days until she asked me why she can't see me via cam. I told her I am very busy and go home late at night, when she's sleeping. She had no problem with that because I told her I she will see me when I have time, in reality I just wanted to see her smile.... When the conversation ended she gave me her # and said I can txt her whenever I want and she wants to meet me because she has never met someone like me.
The night after that I woke up only thinking about her. I was really mindfucked how this could happen. I completely let my guard down and she took advantage of it. Who knows if she told the truth the entire time (I didn't either), but she really got me attracted to her.
Fast forward to last night. She is at work and she asks me if I want to meet up later. I said: "Sure, I'll check to see what time I'm off work." She said OK; I really want to see you (Smilie face) I really began to feel like a fool for doing this. Usually I don't give a fuck about girls' feelings but this one really is a nice girl and I don't want to fuck her up on purpose.
I logged into Skype and told her I get off late, she got disappointed but I cheered her up a little bit by saying that I could meet her the next day or the day after.. She replies with: "That's too bad, everyone has been saying I look hot today." This is where the teasing began.
She got home, she said she was home alone. We played a bit and she teased me a lot. From sucking a lollipop to almost uncovering her bra. Always keeping it on the edge.
Eventually she asked why I'm on OKC, I told her I want to meet girls and have fun together. She asked: "For sex?" I said; Yes. She really looked upset and started crying (wtf?) I asked her what's wrong and she told me she is tired of being seen as a sex object and thought me not mentioning sex meant something... I'm like why are you teasing me then? She said she just got in the mood for it and changed her mind. (Like most girls do when they realize they're being a slut)
She told me I am probably going to stop talking to her now and I told her I won't since I find her interesting and cool. She smiled and we exchanged some thoughts about relationships, etc. That was the end of our conversation....
The problem here is that I really like the girl and have no idea what I should do next. I can just block her on Skype and delete my OKC account, but that would make me feel bad...
Again, I've have never even thought about me being like this. I always thought I wouldn't give a fuck but I just can't seem to do that now, even though I want to.
What a long ass post by the way.... I feel really bad for writing it but I had to get it out of my system...
Any insights from you guys would be greatly appreciated.
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Long time lurker here. Have been into gaming women for about 2 years now after swallowing 'the red pill.' I am completely comfortable around women and pull cute girls on a consistent basis. But what's cute for me doesn't have to be cute for another guy since I've been told I have a weird taste...
Anyways, I usually never post on forums but this will be an exception since I'm having some trouble with my unique case.
Rewind 2 weeks ago. I read the 'how to get laid on OKcupid like a boss' thread entirely and decide to make an account there, without my real picture, location and info. Just to experiment basically. I set my city to to Miami and saw some cute girls on there. I decided to send a message to a couple and some replied.
Next thing I know I am exchanging messages with a cute 20 year old college student from a suburb in Miami. I completely let my guard down since I just created the account to experiment. We message each other for like 5 days straight until she asked if I use Skype.
This is where it all went wrong. I never should have done this. What happened next was I created a Skype account (fake one obviously) and added her on that. After chatting for some time she asked if I had a webcam. I denied it and told her I am at work and they don't have web cams, but that I do have a microphone. I talked to her and she seemed real sweet compared to the other girls I have met.
We really talked about everything you can imagine. After a while she asked if I wanted to see her via webcam. I said sure. She turned her cam on for me and we talked some more. Now I could see her reaction to everything I said to her. She laughed at smiled a lot of the time I said something, which really made me like her..
This went on for a couple of days until she asked me why she can't see me via cam. I told her I am very busy and go home late at night, when she's sleeping. She had no problem with that because I told her I she will see me when I have time, in reality I just wanted to see her smile.... When the conversation ended she gave me her # and said I can txt her whenever I want and she wants to meet me because she has never met someone like me.
The night after that I woke up only thinking about her. I was really mindfucked how this could happen. I completely let my guard down and she took advantage of it. Who knows if she told the truth the entire time (I didn't either), but she really got me attracted to her.
Fast forward to last night. She is at work and she asks me if I want to meet up later. I said: "Sure, I'll check to see what time I'm off work." She said OK; I really want to see you (Smilie face) I really began to feel like a fool for doing this. Usually I don't give a fuck about girls' feelings but this one really is a nice girl and I don't want to fuck her up on purpose.
I logged into Skype and told her I get off late, she got disappointed but I cheered her up a little bit by saying that I could meet her the next day or the day after.. She replies with: "That's too bad, everyone has been saying I look hot today." This is where the teasing began.
She got home, she said she was home alone. We played a bit and she teased me a lot. From sucking a lollipop to almost uncovering her bra. Always keeping it on the edge.
Eventually she asked why I'm on OKC, I told her I want to meet girls and have fun together. She asked: "For sex?" I said; Yes. She really looked upset and started crying (wtf?) I asked her what's wrong and she told me she is tired of being seen as a sex object and thought me not mentioning sex meant something... I'm like why are you teasing me then? She said she just got in the mood for it and changed her mind. (Like most girls do when they realize they're being a slut)
She told me I am probably going to stop talking to her now and I told her I won't since I find her interesting and cool. She smiled and we exchanged some thoughts about relationships, etc. That was the end of our conversation....
The problem here is that I really like the girl and have no idea what I should do next. I can just block her on Skype and delete my OKC account, but that would make me feel bad...
Again, I've have never even thought about me being like this. I always thought I wouldn't give a fuck but I just can't seem to do that now, even though I want to.
What a long ass post by the way.... I feel really bad for writing it but I had to get it out of my system...
Any insights from you guys would be greatly appreciated.