Quote: (12-28-2013 07:43 AM)blkgatsby Wrote:
Just thinking out loud, it isn't necessarily red pill (it can be), but more of a thought on life.
Has anyone really ever been curious of something, whether it's game, how politics really works, finding peoples true intentions, etc. only to wish that you never learned the dirty truth? I kinda feel that way about game, but also about a lot of things.
In some ways I kinda wish I could be completely ignorant to the matter at hand and not get burned for it. I'm guessing that's why people yearn for childhood again., because its basically a period of innocence and ignorance.
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This!!!
Just the other day I was thinking about a saying when it comes to learning about consciousness...
"Once you open that door, it becomes a doorway you can never be closed again"
For me it is the continual understanding that MONOGAMY is something that I will never experience and no matter how amazing of a woman I meet, I will never change.
To know that I can go anywhere and create this amazing life has caused me to become very flakey almost like a "ghost". It really doesn't matter what happens because I can always generate those experiences again.
I still remember one chick I really loved and to this day love who she is. I tried ACTING like I was in a relationship without telling her. Not even 3hrs in I'm playfully kissing a chick and end of the night about to take a different chick home. In THEORY, I was capable of being with just her because after a few slip ups it was only her...until...
Then after a few boundaries were crossed (nothing manager) and I figured "fuck this" because the mere fact of texting back and forth was more of a hassle than me just taking home some girl right infront of me. I did meet up with her months later...Then next time she seen me I was so standoffish although that is just my default state.
Moving along, seeing all the social masks and issues with women, at times it makes you wish you were ignorant. I remember when I first started I thought certain things were "harsh" or "fucked up". All those thoughts have dropped and now I feel like I'm the supermodel who at times can be misinterpreted for being bitchy despite being in demand.
To paint a picture...
- Wednesday met this awesome girl, gave my # for the sake of bringing her out the next day...Never texted...
- Girl I've been messing with past wee or so, stopped followingup on the invites of "texting her later to give more details" and now I don't eve want to text her again just cause...My life continue moving...
- One of my partner in crimes, haven't seen her in 1-2 months despite being around each other atleast 1-2x a week all year...NOT ONCE did I message her...She called me today, I was too tired and still haven't messaged her
- Gorgeous chick, I approach genuinely, gave my # and told her I want her in my life...Never texted her...Yesterday mistakenly drunk texted wrong person she responds that she is back in sweden
This is all in the span of the past 2 days. Not to mention the women who ran into me and the other girls I gave their #s too. In my mind though...
Today Is Just Another Adventure
Unlike others, I don't get validation out of this, I'm just addicted to all the experiences along with the people I meet and how I develop/grow as a person as a result of those experiences. 2 days from now a chick I used to talk to is flying back to this city...I already have it set that I won't talk to her nor bother messaging her because my train doesn't wait for anything it's just gonna keep on chugging.