Right now I'm fluffy.
I look in the bathroom mirror and want to kick my own ass. I've neglected my lifting routine and fallen behind on my cardio. I've been eating and drinking too much and it shows. I've gone from 15% to 18% body fat and am about 7-8lb over where I should be. I don't want anyone to "accept" me or enable me by telling me I look good. I don't--right now-- but I will. Each day before Memorial Day is an opportunity to either get better or worse.
I'm not going to write articles about how society should accept me for who I am because I'm a great person inside, I'm going to go the gym and put myself into a world of hurt. I'm going to leave with a ball cap soaked with sweat and I'm going to earn my lean physique back. There are rights and responsibilities. I have one body to take care of and I'll be damned if I'm going to let it go to Shamu status. No one has a right to be told they look good if they don't but we all have a responsibility to take care of ourselves and I've failed over the last four months. I'll fat shame myself until I'm back on top, until I'm a better person because the Jackaroe you see at the end of May WILL be a better person than the one now. He'll be one who dedicated himself to a goal and achieved it. Then and only then can you say I "Look good" and I'll believe you because I earned it myself.
Don't accept me for who I am. Admire me for who I *can* be.
It starts today.
I look in the bathroom mirror and want to kick my own ass. I've neglected my lifting routine and fallen behind on my cardio. I've been eating and drinking too much and it shows. I've gone from 15% to 18% body fat and am about 7-8lb over where I should be. I don't want anyone to "accept" me or enable me by telling me I look good. I don't--right now-- but I will. Each day before Memorial Day is an opportunity to either get better or worse.
I'm not going to write articles about how society should accept me for who I am because I'm a great person inside, I'm going to go the gym and put myself into a world of hurt. I'm going to leave with a ball cap soaked with sweat and I'm going to earn my lean physique back. There are rights and responsibilities. I have one body to take care of and I'll be damned if I'm going to let it go to Shamu status. No one has a right to be told they look good if they don't but we all have a responsibility to take care of ourselves and I've failed over the last four months. I'll fat shame myself until I'm back on top, until I'm a better person because the Jackaroe you see at the end of May WILL be a better person than the one now. He'll be one who dedicated himself to a goal and achieved it. Then and only then can you say I "Look good" and I'll believe you because I earned it myself.
Don't accept me for who I am. Admire me for who I *can* be.
It starts today.
