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Alcohol, to me, isn’t liquid courage like it is for others. I’ve got the courage already. What alcohol does for me is it makes me go to SLEEP. After one or two drinks, my eyelids start to close, and all I want to do is just slink back in my chair and doze off.

Are you sure you're not drinking beer, but hard liquor as well? Beer is what makes you pass out, but shots like vodka and rum should keep you up and active.

Aside from that, I could make a massive post for you but just don't have the time ATM, and especially because you seem to have gone every route: teaching abroad is your best choice. Bar none. China, Taiwan, maybe even the Middle East for the $$ (it seems like you need some). If you need sources shoot me a PM, I'm a pro at living abroad by now, and you need not just the girls but the $$ by the looks of your situation.

I hate to say it, but you seem to have some innately social awkwardness that may be impossible to stave off. The others may have to confirm this after they Skype with you. The solution is to just live abroad. I had the same problem of having initially amazing interactions, but over time people would just ignore me ("and how do those 2 just talk for an hour straight??"). It took a couple years to shake off, but for you, don't try to fit a square peg into a round hole - live abroad.
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