I don't know how heavy my mom's hand in my problems with girls. My father died when I was four and I think that it must have destroyed her emotionally, and I reckon thats why she grew so distant from me as a kid. I know I gained that act out for attention type of deal when she withdrew herself. It hard for me to say how that relates to lack of innate skill with women or if she did the absolute best she could without a man around.
We talk alot about how single mothering is a terrible idea but I cant hate her over it she had no choice. When she was about to remarry when I was thirteen I hated the Idea. Now I realize the best move for our family would have been for her to remarry while I was still a child so I could have gone with knowing the struggle of having no father figure. I needed that man in my life to teach me about girls, drinking, drugs, and fighting. Though I think I am grateful for things to have panned out the way they did, learning by trial and error is much more fun.
We talk alot about how single mothering is a terrible idea but I cant hate her over it she had no choice. When she was about to remarry when I was thirteen I hated the Idea. Now I realize the best move for our family would have been for her to remarry while I was still a child so I could have gone with knowing the struggle of having no father figure. I needed that man in my life to teach me about girls, drinking, drugs, and fighting. Though I think I am grateful for things to have panned out the way they did, learning by trial and error is much more fun.
"Look Mama, no hands..."