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If you want, I can hook you up with some BKK skanks I know, as long as you don't mind being my Eskimo bro!
Thanks Scotian... tempting but... I think I'll have to pass for now!
I have noticed some odd behaviour in myself though. Yesterday for example, I thought fuck it, I'll go out to Siam, do some shopping for bits for the condo, and approach if I see some nice girls.
I noticed how very, very quickly, I am just right inside my head. I'm looking at a girl, reading her expressiosn to see what she is thinking of me. Not finding out by opening, but trying to read her fucking mind I suppose. Of course, when she doesn't stop or open me, my brain is like, "Yeah? Fuck you bitch" and so on and so on. Keep doing this for a few hours and I swear I am a raving psychopath before long... My whole internal raection is just "fuck you" and "fuck you too". It does not make for a good pickup frame of mind.
So I get in this super psycho frame of mind - a taxi guy saw me walking along with a few bags of shopping so nudged his coworker in a "Quick! Look! A farang with shopping!"
He said "Taxi?" - I pretty much stopped and stared this mothetrfucker down. He let out some Thai tirade of under-his-breath abuse. I came really close to having a fight with the fucker. Not clever and all because of some self-inflicted psychosis!
But weirdly, after the exhaustion of walking round in that kind of "fight" state for an hour or so, I got into a post-adrenalin almost relaxed state of honestly not giving a fuck about anything. A very solid and grounded feeling. And I noticed there that I was looking at girls without any thoughts, positive or negative and the way they looked back at me was totally different. One girl almsot looked she was licking her lips, she had these massive saucer eyes that Ross Jeffries described as the "doggy dinner-bowl" look. I saw it, it was as clear as day.
Anyway, I'm going out to buy food. I pretty much just consumed sugar, caffine and alcohol yesterday. I don't feel good! But I didn't smoke so that is a victory.
Your lovable psycho...
Gift
PS - the thunderstorm last night was awesome - the streets flooded and I saw at least 4 building take a direct lightning strike. It was immense!