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What Gmac said.

Your friend is clearly feeling guilty and projecting that feeling on you. It's not your fault he cheated. I hate it when a "natural" gives bullshit advice. Disregard.

(08-07-2012 09:10 PM)Aureo Wrote:  

Maybe what happened is that inside me, it's a tiring business to always behave as alpha (what is normally defined as) as possible, while being conscious about it. Maybe it's not natural to do this, maybe being an idiotic moron is my natural state and I should not mess with it. But then, that poses the question, what is better? To be who you were before, in your natural state, or at least what was made of your natural state when you we're being raised, maybe I'm overthinking about life, and in this process I stop being who I really am.
But what is a natural state, if a baby was to be born with no external influences, and only his internal personality was to be expressed, how would it be?

I want to know what do you think about this. Thanks.

I think you've got it the wrong way around.

Being alpha isn't supposed to be like making too much of an effort. It's the other way around, being alpha is just a natural state and being beta is what is tiring since a beta doesn't recognize his inner cravings and worries what the girls think about him all the time etc. When I'm practising game it just feels natural and it makes me feel better and more confident. I think maybe you're trying to hard to be alpha and overkill it. Be alpha, but in your own way.
Also, I think Tuthmosis is right you may need to downgrade some people in your life but at 17 maybe this is harder for some.