Quote: (03-23-2019 09:14 PM)Heuristics Wrote:
This is something I think I've kept repressed for a long time. I understand the discrepancy between real women and my ideal woman now. It feels like a major breakthrough, actually. This girl was not perfect, but everything that I wanted. Namely, honesty, grace, and intelligence. I've been having a mental block with girls recently, but it all makes sense now.
I don't know how else to describe my thoughts, but I would appreciate input....
She was attractive but ironically i haven't had that many sexual thoughts about her ever, even though she is attractive.... What does it mean?
I know we talk a lot about the alpha/beta dichotomy, but i take this dream to mean that I want an average girl that cares about me in a deep way, rather than a superficial hot chick. That's my subconscious speaking. I haven't had a better experience with a girl to date, but have no clue what that means. I'm still really young.
edit: so I did a quick search and she's marrying the guy i mentioned. Not surprised, but she shot low. Shit.
It kinda sounds like what you really want is a very Incan latina if you want an honest girl that takes care of you, but grace is something you'd have to teach. Intelligence or teachability is something you would have to screen for. There's some cultural shit you'd have to watch out for like a pathological fear of the mildest cold.
Quote: (03-23-2019 10:38 PM)Heuristics Wrote:
I'm looking at the photos of her and BF, and I'm disgusted. I never recognized the signs, and some dipshit autist motherfucker will get married to her. Not an alpha by any means. Fucking disgusting. 23 years old and marrying a Sperg...
Girls make bad decisions all the time. When a girl has a lot of time to weigh a guy's value seemingly "deep" connections mean friend zone. The right sort of asshole indifference on the other hand inspires girl's love and it can discount all sorts of external indicators that the dude is a loser.
Have you tried meditation?