Hey guys,
This thread has been coming for a while. Change tends to scare the living hell out of me so it has been procrastinated. It has also been very hard for me to tell the truth, it has been scaring me, but I will do my outmost to tell the truth here on this board.
I suppose the most important thing is not to stray from the red pill. I seem to go in and out of periods where I am thinking it does not work, it's not the truth. Mainstream media and it's shaming has done that to me.
How do I stay on the path?
I was so into pickup 13 years ago, then there was this female radio reporter who interviewed me becaues the phenomenom was new. She agreed to not use my real name, but she did. I was only 17.
I don't care so much about girls at the moment, it's more about getting my life fixed and start thinking about the future.
I am 30. I moved to Thailand 2 years ago. I have a guaranteed passive income of 440 USD / month and make 13 - 16 USD per hour working online, but it can only be done during certain hours of the day or allthroughout the weekend. It is kind of taxing though so not a good idea to overdo it, currently I am working 3 hours per day.
There is a lot to be done about my mental state. I lift. I meditate.
I only trust the this forum and a very alpha dude I found now for advice. I definitively want to become more masculine. I did CBT therapy up until recently but quit now because I quit taking SSRI because it was making me confused. The therapist also showed me a picture of his wife and she was a whale, which undermined my confidence in him.
I do want to travel and bang beautiful women, while working on making money online. What has been keeping me back has been a fear that my mental state will become worse and staying in the same spot is good for habit building. And I just recently realized that my pollen allergy is making me have fatigued, so I got it in my head that I need to move somewhere where there is none and then everything will be better.
A big issue is my working memory, which is why I need to continue doing resistance training and meditation to improve it. Writing this is pretty hard as I keep reading what I have already written again and again.
My game is pretty much nonexistant now, I exhausted the girls online. I live in Chiang Mai in northern Thailand. I barely speak any thai and my cold approach game is very bad, I am not even doing it because it seems so often when I go out it ends in me not doing any.
I purchased Game a while ago, and stopped when I got to the part where you actually need to do some work. I just have this huge resistance to doing it.
I spend way to much time in bed, I need to come up with things to do that feel meaningful.
Now I stayed up all night, it seems every time I am convinced of the next step I subconsiously fuck it up.
What is the solution for that?
What is the cure for being extremely insecure when talking or writing posts? So that I can´t speak normally.
This thread has been coming for a while. Change tends to scare the living hell out of me so it has been procrastinated. It has also been very hard for me to tell the truth, it has been scaring me, but I will do my outmost to tell the truth here on this board.
I suppose the most important thing is not to stray from the red pill. I seem to go in and out of periods where I am thinking it does not work, it's not the truth. Mainstream media and it's shaming has done that to me.
How do I stay on the path?
I was so into pickup 13 years ago, then there was this female radio reporter who interviewed me becaues the phenomenom was new. She agreed to not use my real name, but she did. I was only 17.
I don't care so much about girls at the moment, it's more about getting my life fixed and start thinking about the future.
I am 30. I moved to Thailand 2 years ago. I have a guaranteed passive income of 440 USD / month and make 13 - 16 USD per hour working online, but it can only be done during certain hours of the day or allthroughout the weekend. It is kind of taxing though so not a good idea to overdo it, currently I am working 3 hours per day.
There is a lot to be done about my mental state. I lift. I meditate.
I only trust the this forum and a very alpha dude I found now for advice. I definitively want to become more masculine. I did CBT therapy up until recently but quit now because I quit taking SSRI because it was making me confused. The therapist also showed me a picture of his wife and she was a whale, which undermined my confidence in him.
I do want to travel and bang beautiful women, while working on making money online. What has been keeping me back has been a fear that my mental state will become worse and staying in the same spot is good for habit building. And I just recently realized that my pollen allergy is making me have fatigued, so I got it in my head that I need to move somewhere where there is none and then everything will be better.
A big issue is my working memory, which is why I need to continue doing resistance training and meditation to improve it. Writing this is pretty hard as I keep reading what I have already written again and again.
My game is pretty much nonexistant now, I exhausted the girls online. I live in Chiang Mai in northern Thailand. I barely speak any thai and my cold approach game is very bad, I am not even doing it because it seems so often when I go out it ends in me not doing any.
I purchased Game a while ago, and stopped when I got to the part where you actually need to do some work. I just have this huge resistance to doing it.
I spend way to much time in bed, I need to come up with things to do that feel meaningful.
Now I stayed up all night, it seems every time I am convinced of the next step I subconsiously fuck it up.
What is the solution for that?
What is the cure for being extremely insecure when talking or writing posts? So that I can´t speak normally.