I get this pretty heavy and have always had it. Think Biggie Smalls "Suicidal Thoughts" ... I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes... Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies... That level of melancholy. The title of this thread includes the word "deep"... I think mine qualifies.
1. If the girl is under what I would consider "pretty" e.g. a 5, the melancholy is fueled by a feeling of disgust at myself, feelings of self-criticism e.g. "why couldn't you ejaculate in a hotter girl", "damn why did that 7 flake now I'm stuck with a 5" and if I meet guys later or am in a social gathering, I feel ashamed and for some reason (maybe because my desire is muted but still I feel I should get 7s instead of a 5) I feel like punching every girl I see in the face, especially the hotter ones so 6s and 7s. To the guys I just say "shiiiitttt....I just came in a 5" "what, rawdog" "yeah...totally exploded in her... fuuuuuuuuck..." "fuuuuckk"![[Image: confused.gif]](https://rooshvforum.network/images/smilies/confused.gif)
2. If the girl is a girl I have put a lot of work in because she has "a great personality" or she's "really sweet, feminine and intelligent", the melancholy is fueled by a feeling of "fuck, she just did X Y Z in the sheets, what a freak, when I saw her I thought NAWALT... [cartman voice] 'noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......' Sometimes girls who look the opposite of "sluts" and even had lives not slutty so far, these girls do the freakiest shit in bed or allow it, while the "sluts" can be quite "tame" compared to these chaste-looking feminine girls. I question why I put in so effort for this girl when it was just smoke and mirrors. What's the point of all this effort in pickup? Self-improvement. I look at her disheveled face, slightly ashamed often, and I think, "Maybe I should just quit chasing girls and play Elder Scrolls while eating candy and drinking Mountain Dew all day, at least I would be able to escape and not feel this."
I even have this with motivation if I jerk off. Before ejaculation: "yeah I'm definitely gonna travel to X and Y location." After ejaculation: "fuck that I'm staying home."
I did a lot of research on this online and could only find that Galen quote. But most men don't have this crash, they may feel a lot flatter but they don't descend into a dark abyss.
I couldn't find any real cure. I just play 90s hip hop after ejaculation that fits the mood so I don't feel like I'm alone or something along those lines.
1. If the girl is under what I would consider "pretty" e.g. a 5, the melancholy is fueled by a feeling of disgust at myself, feelings of self-criticism e.g. "why couldn't you ejaculate in a hotter girl", "damn why did that 7 flake now I'm stuck with a 5" and if I meet guys later or am in a social gathering, I feel ashamed and for some reason (maybe because my desire is muted but still I feel I should get 7s instead of a 5) I feel like punching every girl I see in the face, especially the hotter ones so 6s and 7s. To the guys I just say "shiiiitttt....I just came in a 5" "what, rawdog" "yeah...totally exploded in her... fuuuuuuuuck..." "fuuuuckk"
2. If the girl is a girl I have put a lot of work in because she has "a great personality" or she's "really sweet, feminine and intelligent", the melancholy is fueled by a feeling of "fuck, she just did X Y Z in the sheets, what a freak, when I saw her I thought NAWALT... [cartman voice] 'noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......' Sometimes girls who look the opposite of "sluts" and even had lives not slutty so far, these girls do the freakiest shit in bed or allow it, while the "sluts" can be quite "tame" compared to these chaste-looking feminine girls. I question why I put in so effort for this girl when it was just smoke and mirrors. What's the point of all this effort in pickup? Self-improvement. I look at her disheveled face, slightly ashamed often, and I think, "Maybe I should just quit chasing girls and play Elder Scrolls while eating candy and drinking Mountain Dew all day, at least I would be able to escape and not feel this."
I even have this with motivation if I jerk off. Before ejaculation: "yeah I'm definitely gonna travel to X and Y location." After ejaculation: "fuck that I'm staying home."
I did a lot of research on this online and could only find that Galen quote. But most men don't have this crash, they may feel a lot flatter but they don't descend into a dark abyss.
I couldn't find any real cure. I just play 90s hip hop after ejaculation that fits the mood so I don't feel like I'm alone or something along those lines.