Greetings, I know what you're going through.
It's the initial, bitter taste of the red pill, and the accompanying realization that many of your old ways aren't congruent with the way the world works. So it seems you have a conflict of the mind and of the heart. So I have two questions for you:
1: What is the outcome you want for yourself from game?
2: Who are you really?
The overarching method manosphere may seem to be the "I don't give a fuck" attitude, but if you really look into what the red pill is about, you'll realize that this isn't really the case. The whole point of game is to develop a method that works for you. You can still be a nerdy romantic, you just have to temper the detrimental tendencies associated with that. The mental wall you are experiencing is born of not being true to yourself. So let me ask again.
1: What is the outcome you want for yourself from game?
2: Who are you really?
Once you know the answer to those two questions, you will be able to find a method of game that suits your heart as much as it suits your head. Once you calibrate to that, the wall will be gone, and you'll be on fire, day and night.
It's the initial, bitter taste of the red pill, and the accompanying realization that many of your old ways aren't congruent with the way the world works. So it seems you have a conflict of the mind and of the heart. So I have two questions for you:
1: What is the outcome you want for yourself from game?
2: Who are you really?
The overarching method manosphere may seem to be the "I don't give a fuck" attitude, but if you really look into what the red pill is about, you'll realize that this isn't really the case. The whole point of game is to develop a method that works for you. You can still be a nerdy romantic, you just have to temper the detrimental tendencies associated with that. The mental wall you are experiencing is born of not being true to yourself. So let me ask again.
1: What is the outcome you want for yourself from game?
2: Who are you really?
Once you know the answer to those two questions, you will be able to find a method of game that suits your heart as much as it suits your head. Once you calibrate to that, the wall will be gone, and you'll be on fire, day and night.