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Thanks for the suggestions. I agree saying retired sounds weak, unless you're younger and it therefore shows superior skills of some kind. I think the best thing for me is the "artsy" persona. It 's the reality, and my tastes run to MUCH younger wimmens. Being involved in the arts keeps an aura of excitement around, helping them maintain the Disneyworld fantasy of life they want so much. To be honest, what if your biodetermined fate was to grow a tumor the size of a football, shit it out almost killing yourself and thus losing your figure and atttractiveness, and be an emotional slave to the tumor-child as it grows. Shit, if I was a chick i'd be a flake too, who would want to face your real haggard, unwanted fate?