UPDATE
It feels like I am in the middle of solving an extremely tough math problem but I'm getting a sense of what I need to do and what tools can get me there. To be completely honest, I am actually having a lot of fucking fun fighting what is left of my social anxiety; it's keeping my mind racing to find solutions.
So I've decided to try out a couple new things:
I've already taken up some new "traditional" habits that build confidence with intimacy: Salsa/partner dance, & small talk with cashiers. I've noticed some significant improvements in my comfortability to touch people, before I'd start getting some extreme anxiety at the thought of touching another human but I'm slowly acclimating. Same with the small-talk.
I'm going to start doing Salsa twice a week for the rest of this summer. It's a lot of fucking fun as well. Already after two lessons, I feel like I can follow the rhythm of songs better.
Also have my first toastmasters meeting today; I'm hoping this is going to take my confidence to the next level.
Anxiety is just the fear of the unknown man....therefore I got to keep chipping away at the rock so that it eventually cracks. I kind of feel like I might be tackling the problem indirectly, but even-so, it makes the translation to conquering anxiety a lot easier.
I'm so glad I didn't cop out at a young age to Xanax (despite the quacks wanting me to).
It feels like I am in the middle of solving an extremely tough math problem but I'm getting a sense of what I need to do and what tools can get me there. To be completely honest, I am actually having a lot of fucking fun fighting what is left of my social anxiety; it's keeping my mind racing to find solutions.
So I've decided to try out a couple new things:
I've already taken up some new "traditional" habits that build confidence with intimacy: Salsa/partner dance, & small talk with cashiers. I've noticed some significant improvements in my comfortability to touch people, before I'd start getting some extreme anxiety at the thought of touching another human but I'm slowly acclimating. Same with the small-talk.
I'm going to start doing Salsa twice a week for the rest of this summer. It's a lot of fucking fun as well. Already after two lessons, I feel like I can follow the rhythm of songs better.
Also have my first toastmasters meeting today; I'm hoping this is going to take my confidence to the next level.
Anxiety is just the fear of the unknown man....therefore I got to keep chipping away at the rock so that it eventually cracks. I kind of feel like I might be tackling the problem indirectly, but even-so, it makes the translation to conquering anxiety a lot easier.
I'm so glad I didn't cop out at a young age to Xanax (despite the quacks wanting me to).