[vodka.hawk]

Right of the bat your social or maybe life philosophy is out of whack. You need to understand you live for yourself, you things for yourself, you soclialize for you and not because you feel you need to. Enjoy life and by the person you want to be by yer actions, which brings me to my next point. Your thinking is negative "im socially awkward, i need help, bla bla bla". I read a very interesting book on the power of your sub-consciousness. What i got from it, is that your conscious thoughts shape your sub-conscousness that ultimately shape you. So by thinking "im awkaward" and thoughts like these, you become them. It goes the same for actions, say your about to heelflip over a large stair case (this is skateboarding, say your about to do some scary trick that involves skill/cordination) you cannot have doubt, your body isnt going to automatically do it if the control center (your mind) doesnt believe it. So use your sub-consciousness, Mike Tyson would tell himself he was God before entering the ring. Im not saying he depended on that before the fight but it gave him an edge. You could even say that MIke Tyson "thought" like a fighter, and thoughts turn into actions. Fighters train and fight, therefore they must think about doing those things to initiate the action. The point im trying to get across is that you have to think like an outgoing social person, if you want to become one. Find role models and steal attributes that you like about them. And try to think like them. For example, I like Clint Eastwood. He doesnt need to say much, but he'll be clear about how he feels or what he wants, and he'll say it in a very straight forward way. So i ask myself in an situation how would clint eastwood respond to this, and i do it, and the thinking and action becomes part of my normal response. I dont mimic the voice or scrunch up my face and growl, but i have aquired that characteristic.