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(12-09-2015 01:13 AM)LINUX Wrote:  

You need to sell everything you own, strip everything away in your life that holds you back and start from scratch. Pack you up a few suit cases and get on a plane or Greyhound to Boulder Colorado. I'll help you get a small apartment here, buy yourself a bicycle and use that for transportation, get yourself a gym membership, take the bus to snowboard/ski on the weekend. Maybe find you a part time job at the coffee shop. Spend 350 days a year in the sunshine. I'll help you as much as I can.

Or you can keep complaining about how much life sucks. I feel for you because I was in your shoes after I got back from war. I was at the end of my rope. I did the exact same thing I am telling you to do. I sold everything I own and drove from Alabama to Colorado and reinvented my life. Don't get me wrong, I have my moments when I'm down but I have one hell of a fucking life. I only sleep alone when I want to and I have hundreds of friends that I can call on when I need them. If I was still stuck in the trailer park in Alabama, I would never have those things.

Unless you make a drastic change in your life, I have feeling you'll keep living in the shadows.

This covers everything, changing scenery. Going somewhere where OP can meet new people and make friends. Not to mention he was offered a helping hand and wouldn't have to do it all alone.