Quote: (12-07-2015 02:53 PM)Zep Wrote:
Quote: (12-06-2015 06:15 PM)swfter2456 Wrote:
So I've been pretty depressed. In a downward spiral last four years, have just focused on trying to get better last few months. I've seen several psychologist/psychiatrists, I've taken a lot of meds, none have worked.
What meds have you tried?
What dosage?
And for how long?
Please be as accurate as possible with the information given, if you choose to share.
Dosage I wont' remember most. Off the top of my head, lexapro, welbutrin, risperadone, zoloft, brintelix, abilify, serequel, cymbalta, lithium, latuda. I only spent significant time on zoloft/brintelix/cymbalta because I was pretty sensitive to side effects.
Quote: (12-07-2015 05:35 PM)Eddie Winslow Wrote:
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I'm isolated as fuck, I have no one in my life. I've done all these things and been told I have an awesome life yet am still miserable.
Man - do I ever know how that feels.
My guess is that you are like me. Since Kindergarten, I've been doing whatever other people have told me I should be doing. Do you actually want to travel the world? Fuck random sluts every night forever? Be an entrepreneur? Conquer the world? Doesn't sound like it.
Those are other people's idea of a successful life. Have you ever shutoff the TV, closed out of RVF, and thought about what is important to YOU? Maybe you want to help people who need help. Maybe you want to fight bad guys. Maybe you want to be a Dad, and have a beautiful child to love and show the world to instead of just mindlessly doing "alpha" shit you don't even care about.
Also, I agree with other posters, having great relationships is the essence of life. Try to be vulnerable and seek out people you want to be around. Remember, you get back what you put out; if you are miserable and grumpy, don't expect warm, fun people to be killing themselves to hang out with you. Put in TRUE EFFORT to be happy and be positive.
Take some time to REALLY think about what you want - it probably won't come immediately but it will come. Then go do that.
No, not people pushing me towards it, I want to be entrepreneur and I want to travel. I'm just tired of doing everything alone. I guess when you set out with your goals it's accomplish X and you'll be happy, eg when I lose x lbs or make $x I'll be happy. I've accomplished a lot but it just always feels empty at the end.
Like right now I'm looking for an apartment so I can workout and maybe work. But I realize #1 it won't make me better #2 I'm probably just going to spend all day in bed and do nothing. So I just don't even care to look
Quote: (12-07-2015 07:22 PM)nomadicdude Wrote:
It sounds like you have tried all western medicine has to offer and it has failed so why not try Buddhist meditation? There are tons of resources online that will teach you how to meditate each day using the breathing technique. It sounds stupid but probably the only thing that has really helped me deal with down times is Buddhist meditation. I regret that I don't have the discipline to do it for 20 minutes a day. Even 2-3 minutes can help, it's pretty powerful when done right.
This is just my two cents, but I use to buy into the American viewpoint of depression (basically that it is not normal and you must treat it with therapy and/or pills). In some cases that may be appropriate, but I think overall we all suffer. There's a saying in Buddhism that basically says: Once you are taking pills and thinking there is something wrong with you, you will actually become more depressed because you start to think of yourself as a unusual freak because you are on pills. Your depression actually becomes the source of more depression. In other words, in the west the underlying reason for depression isn't really treated. I have forgotten a lot of the Buddhist teachings but basically it goes like this: (1) all humans suffer (2) by accepting that it's not just you alone who suffers (3) you can actually overcome grief and depression. You essentially need to change your mindset about how you think about things.
You should check out a Buddhism book at least to see if it's something you are interested in.
I've meditated on and off, but never more than a month probably. None of these cures will solve my problems because at end of the day will still be isolated.