[HenryM]

Totaly endorse the "next her" advice. Plenty of other options--you need to internalize that by living it. Get out there and approach.

I used to be shocked when sex with a girl amounted to nothing. It was my upbringing--sounds like yours too.
Embrace red-pill--only way out of what is otherwise madness/depression.

If you do, you'll be good in 6 months, I promise.