Hey WIA - I was also raised in the West Indies (currently living between here and Europe), glad to see I'm not the only one on here - thanks for the post!
I'm sure a lot of beginning gamers could take away a great bit from what you've said. The part about unconscious competence is some really great stuff.
However, I don't think I explained myself properly in my original post. I was never using only any branded or named type of "game", I thrust myself into extremely uncomfortable positions from day one.
As such I am in this state of unconscious competence a good majority of the time. I learned very quickly that planning and scheming will do nothing but make you anxious as hell. My problem is *not* waiting for inspiration or being a general amateur, I can assure you of that a million times over. I do not WANT to be a professional, I've been into game heavily for almost 5 years now and I am beyond capable of stepping up to and beyond the plate in any reasonable situation. I would consider myself to be in the top .01% of men when it comes to game.
I do think that others who've posted here came a bit closer to the mark in suggesting depression or manic-depressive disorder. The issue I'm having, which I did a terrible job explaining last night, is not a physical or mental one. I'm not talking myself out of it or waiting to feel like I'm in the right 'state' or 'zone' to talk to girls.
The issue is that sometimes I just feel like someone's dropped a weight on my brain. The logical and interactive connections I would normally make when dealing with women simply do not happen. Normally I would have a general framework in my mind (be silly for x amount of time, be serious for x amount of time, be a man and make it happen asap) and my internal compass works absolute magic at knowing when to switch it up or tweak certain things based on how the girl is responding.
On a bad day that compass has been more or less smashed, and I feel more like I'm just going through motions. I'm quicker to get annoyed or to give up and just come back home and do other things.
In essence WIA, what I'm trying to say is that I'm not waiting for an internal high because I'm completely happy with not only running game from, but just existing in my baseline state. What I want to know is why the lows are so drastic, and why they make me feel and act like I'm a genuinely different person.
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I'm sure a lot of beginning gamers could take away a great bit from what you've said. The part about unconscious competence is some really great stuff.
However, I don't think I explained myself properly in my original post. I was never using only any branded or named type of "game", I thrust myself into extremely uncomfortable positions from day one.
As such I am in this state of unconscious competence a good majority of the time. I learned very quickly that planning and scheming will do nothing but make you anxious as hell. My problem is *not* waiting for inspiration or being a general amateur, I can assure you of that a million times over. I do not WANT to be a professional, I've been into game heavily for almost 5 years now and I am beyond capable of stepping up to and beyond the plate in any reasonable situation. I would consider myself to be in the top .01% of men when it comes to game.
I do think that others who've posted here came a bit closer to the mark in suggesting depression or manic-depressive disorder. The issue I'm having, which I did a terrible job explaining last night, is not a physical or mental one. I'm not talking myself out of it or waiting to feel like I'm in the right 'state' or 'zone' to talk to girls.
The issue is that sometimes I just feel like someone's dropped a weight on my brain. The logical and interactive connections I would normally make when dealing with women simply do not happen. Normally I would have a general framework in my mind (be silly for x amount of time, be serious for x amount of time, be a man and make it happen asap) and my internal compass works absolute magic at knowing when to switch it up or tweak certain things based on how the girl is responding.
On a bad day that compass has been more or less smashed, and I feel more like I'm just going through motions. I'm quicker to get annoyed or to give up and just come back home and do other things.
In essence WIA, what I'm trying to say is that I'm not waiting for an internal high because I'm completely happy with not only running game from, but just existing in my baseline state. What I want to know is why the lows are so drastic, and why they make me feel and act like I'm a genuinely different person.
Thanks again