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(12-19-2014 02:10 AM)killongy Wrote:  

I am really beckoning to the manosphere on the issue....this is beyond embarrassing for me to admit but....

Constant and excessive fapping has fucked up the sensitivity towards my manhood and reality to the point where life doesn't matter (not suicidal), women can go fk off and the the idea of just existing is satisfying enough.

My position in life has regressed to the fate of a piece of wood that's just goes wherever the current goes.

I dont want to seek interaction/sex with women anymore , I don't have a high notch count (6) 4 were girls that fell for my crappy game ,another 2 were chubby white women that were staying at the resort I used to work at.

I just go through the motions at my job.

Since I have increased fapping up to 3-4 times in an evening I have just felt a part of me slowly lose its shine , women barely notice me anymore.

The depressing thing is the usual porn does nothing for me. I look at regular porn and have to summon a great amount of will to just get a semi hard on and I have found myself watching weirder and weirder shit until I reached a point where I lost my boner having come the realization of just how weird the shit is that I have been watching.

The road I have taken , using porn to satisfy my sexual needs partly due to heavy seasonal rains fucking up my logistics. I gained 30 lbs over the months , my abs are gone i'm flabby as fuck and lost the motivation to go abroad and make some money over in Alberta along with my plan of self improvement.

Not to sound like a bitch but I feel hollow man...

I have been working on copywriting to create a location independent lifestyle but even thats fucked.

What can I really do?

We're talking about a real addiction here...

I'm going to sound like an old person, but porn was such an innocent thing when I was growing up. It was a playboy magazine/lingerie catalog or even an old VHS cassette with barely and hardcore stuff. What we see today in sites like pornhub it's extremely dangerous to our brain and attention span. Porn is kinda like a drug, you watch it and you want more and more. And like you said: "usual porn does nothing for me."
I'm sorry to say it friend but your brain is fried right now and you are a porn junkie.

My advice to you OP:
-Go cold turkey for 10 straight days. No porn, no FAP, no social media (facebook, instagram girls/fitness models etc...) it's going to be a bitch, but this is where willpower and the need to change your lifestyle comes into play. How bad do you want to change your life around?
-After 10 days go ahead and FAP just once! Use your imagination, No porn!!!
I believe masturbation is great every now and then. This is just to empty your nuts and get your head straight.
-Start working out. You need to take care of yourself brother! And hitting the gym will not only have physical benefits but mental as well.
-Last but not least, start going out at least twice a week. Hit a bar, find a hobby, take a class. Start talking to people more and more. Go ahead and talk to girls, you don't have to hit on them all the time. This will help with the recovery process.

There's more great advice in the No fap, no porn thread.
You can do this man!

Best of luck



Edit:
Just saw the date from the original post. Any recent follow ups?