Since my last post, which mainly consisted of negativity , I have been doing a hell of a lot better . My friend and I went into Boston a few weeks ago and did our first day approaches (though they didn't last more than a few minutes . . I did something I thought I would never do and handled them pretty well, I wasn't very nervous but my conversations didn't lead to a closing phase . . ) I still have many things to work out such as Inner Game and letting go of the inner bitch that's fucking my mental up, but I'm getting there .
So I went to a few house parties in the past week . I was there, with my band, in a house with about 100 people in it, all dancing, screaming, laughing and all of that good stuff . I wasn't drinking too much since I had taken some Tylenol earlier so I was stone cold sober the entire time .
I chatted up some people, mostly to make connections for our group since were trying to get shows , and was successful but for most of the party (I was there for about five hours) I had a very negative feeling going the entire time .
I couldn't get over how stupid everything seemed to me . The party, the dancing, the people especially, music (though our friends band was great) . There's something about parties that I can't get into unless I'm pretty drunk . I just felt like a downer . I didn't try to game any chicks there because I couldn't put on that false sense of happiness or anything because I had already invested about an hour into being alone and If I was to try and run some game (such as asshole game, which is one of the few modes I know) I assumed my friends would shoot me down since they know I read about this stuff .
I'm a musician, so it was somewhat my "scene" and I could have dropped some DHV's or whatever on some hoes, but I actually think I was the one who shot myself down from the start .
I've got a long way to go, I'm going to start reading more so I can up my conversational skills which are at a minimum right now and also, try to get my motivation, confidence and love for myself back to the way it used to be .
Anyways, my questions are, what is the best approach to house parties , what can I do to get myself in a better "partying" mood and also, any book suggestions for good reading - hopefully something that pertains to this post ? ? I know there was a book list somewhere on this forum, but I'd like some other suggestions . .
Alright, thanks
Pinch
So I went to a few house parties in the past week . I was there, with my band, in a house with about 100 people in it, all dancing, screaming, laughing and all of that good stuff . I wasn't drinking too much since I had taken some Tylenol earlier so I was stone cold sober the entire time .
I chatted up some people, mostly to make connections for our group since were trying to get shows , and was successful but for most of the party (I was there for about five hours) I had a very negative feeling going the entire time .
I couldn't get over how stupid everything seemed to me . The party, the dancing, the people especially, music (though our friends band was great) . There's something about parties that I can't get into unless I'm pretty drunk . I just felt like a downer . I didn't try to game any chicks there because I couldn't put on that false sense of happiness or anything because I had already invested about an hour into being alone and If I was to try and run some game (such as asshole game, which is one of the few modes I know) I assumed my friends would shoot me down since they know I read about this stuff .
I'm a musician, so it was somewhat my "scene" and I could have dropped some DHV's or whatever on some hoes, but I actually think I was the one who shot myself down from the start .
I've got a long way to go, I'm going to start reading more so I can up my conversational skills which are at a minimum right now and also, try to get my motivation, confidence and love for myself back to the way it used to be .
Anyways, my questions are, what is the best approach to house parties , what can I do to get myself in a better "partying" mood and also, any book suggestions for good reading - hopefully something that pertains to this post ? ? I know there was a book list somewhere on this forum, but I'd like some other suggestions . .
Alright, thanks
Pinch